I waited for you,
In the hall,
Wond'ring if I should turn back
After all...

I approached you with caution,
I asked you a question,
No hesitation,
I knew I was blushing,

I wanted you,
To come,
I didn’t want to go alone,

And I thought,
Maybe,
Perhaps you could spare me
That ill-feeling
Of loneliness,

But I guess not.
You said you’d think about it.
But thinking
Still
Ended up being a “no”
It didn’t happen.
And I didn’t go.

And you said, “We should get to know each other…
Better.”

I said, “Okay,” and smiled,
Smiled in rejection…

Then you leaned in,
And you were there,
Your arms around me,

But somehow it didn’t feel right,
It seemed so filled with pity.

Or perhaps I imagined the pity,
And you really did mean it?

I don’t think I will ever know.
We will never,
Ever,
Get to know each other better,
So every word you spun,
Seems lost on me,
And I wonder why,
You even bothered to speak at all.

And now,
I see you,
In the hall,
I feel you coming and I look,
Up then down,
I hide my eyes,
And I hide from you.

I wonder vaguely,
As you pass me,
Do you see me?
Walking by,
My eyes turned down,
My thoughts turned in,
My feelings hid,
So deep inside

And cautiously,
Carefully,
I might look up,
Hoping to see,
You staring back,
Just to know,
I still exist to you.